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I figured I should update. Now probably isn't the best time, but I'll just leave some things out.
Life has been quite mundane, lately. I'm back in the swing of the ol' full-time job working for the city at Mt. Airy. I wish I were a rock-star.
School hasn't started back up, yet. Not until June. I don't have to take both courses this time around... just A&P... with a different professor. I'm a little worried... hopefully, I'll get started on the rite track and finish out with a bang instead of a boom. Heh. Lil' failure humor. Err.
I've been trying to exercise more. I like to walk in the evening. I got a new pair of running shoes, so I'm pretty excited about that. (Thanks to Kimberly)
So, the lesser thing on my mind rite now is... Do you ever notice how hard it is to keep up with housework? Sheesh. I feel like I have to do it everyday. Of course, I'm OCD(un-diagnosed). :)
Moving on, I wish I could take a roadtrip. I wouldn't mind going home just to chill out. I was home for Mother's Day.
-picturebreak-

It was fun. We(joe and i) didn't get to make all the stops we'd hoped too...
I like all the colors in that picture.
A picture really does say a 1000 words especially when the words aren't being said in real-time.
Anyhoo, I love my Josephine.
I'm feeling rather out of touch with my online world. So, what's new with you? :) Feel free to comment.
I should go before I ramble myself into trouble.

Have a good day, folks. Hopefully, I'll be posting some new photos soon.
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We will write because we are born drunk on the wine of God. -linford detweiler

Strawberries and flowers...

I just keep hopin' for some good shots. . .

He's grown up so fast...

Disappointment.

Well, a lot of you know I had a big exam today. I didn't pass. Therefore, I do not get to graduate with my fellow classmates. I wanted it so bad. I studied so hard. So hard.
And any of the folks I study with would tell you that I know the information. I just get really nervous. Anxious to the point of no return.
I'm so disappointed with myself.

So, I'll probably be taking the 4th quarter over and taking the State Medical Board in December instead of June.

Everyone believed I could do it. I guess I didn't.

Thanks for the prayers, tho. Everything happens for a reason...

Random Photographs.

So, how 'bout this weather?

I feel like I'm always adding "life is crazy" in my entries. But it is. Always.

I've had a lot on my mind lately. School is insane. And hopefully, coming to an end. I'm really scared about passing and taking the state medical board. (holy cow!)
I feel behind on the muscles, mostly. Ya'll have no idea how many we have to know. It feels impossible.

I've found a job. Unfortunately, it's a slow start. I went in today for orientation, and will be on the schedule soon. Oh,... Buffalo Wild Wings is the employer. B-dubs. BW3's. Sheesh. I'm not that excited about it. But that's alrite. I'm not trying to act spoiled or anything, I'm very grateful I found a job. And so are my parents. (Keith is pretty happy, too) ;)
I just have to get used to working weekends and never knowing how much money I'm gonna have, again.

Maybe the park board will re-hire me in the spring time. :) (I know everyone misses my huge guns)

Something(read: someone) else has been on my mind too.
It's a Boy™.
And he lives far away. Some of you know about this, some of you don't... that's the beauty of it. :) For now, I'll just say he's really great and I'm happy to have the opportunity to get to know him. Stay tuned for posssible updates.

Aww, a picture...

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So, I'm off to study... b/c that's how I roll.

Good day, folks.

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I know nothing with any certainty, but the sight of stars makes me dream.

- Vincent Van Gogh

A few more...

Hmm...

I'm trying to decide if I like these. I thought it'd be fun to mess around with them on a photoshop-type program. They really don't look anything like the original shots.

Norwood Scenery...

Not your cup o' tea? So.

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Happy? New Year.

Hi folks.

I've been rather bored with myself lately. The holidays are over, I'm jobless, school is starting back up, and my creativity is, um, lazy.

How are you? I'm not gonna ask you had a "good" Christmas or how you "rang" in the new year. I feel so blah. Can ya tell? :)

The cable bill is due. and by "due" i mean overdue. MySpace is addicting during boredom. I took my tree down last nite. Normally, that makes me sad. Not this year. I didn't even get buzzed on New year's eve. I have an interest in a guy I hardly know. But I don't think it's mutual. I miss...
I'm feeling really restless and kind of sad. I think it partially has to do with the weather. Partially b/c somedays I'd rather be living the life of someone else. I should have looked for a job today, but I figure I should feel confident when I do that... so, maybe Wednesday. I'm not trying to sound depressing... I feel like I have a.d.d. I can't focus on one thought for nothin'! It's kind of a crazy feeling but also helps me be more productive. Just takes longer to get things done. Heh. I'm listening to Kim Taylor. She's got it goin' on. I'm thinking about spending my xmas money on Crest Whitestrips(R). I reeally don't want to spend it on bills. I did that last year and for my birthday. I kind of deserve to have to spend it on responsibility, I just don't want to. I want whiter teeth. I miss my brother, and I hope my sister is doing alrite. I should call her. Casie just called, she needs help picking out furniture but didn't call me before she left. She's calling again. I wonder why I wasn't born closer to the ocean. Like, some people might say that if I were born closer to the (beloved) ocean... I might not love it as much. But that is oh-so not true.
It's really storming. I just thought of something. Today has reminded me of being in Japan... the weather, anyway. It was January and 60 degress, no sun. I bet that's the reason. For my mood.

I need to do the dishes.

"I love you more than I can say..."

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I'll leave you with a picture of my friend's daughter. She's so beautiful.

Narcissism and a Poll.

So...

I straightened my hair tonite and I'm wondering what you fine folks might think of it.

Exhibit A:


Exhibit 2:

How do you like my hair?
	Curly?
	Straight?
	You don't really give a rat's ace?
	You think I should shave my head and give it to "locks of love"?
	Your mother.
Free polls from Pollhost.com

Greetings, ya'll...

I just wanna step in rite quick to thank my friends for reading/leaving comments in my journal. Sometimes, it just seems to make life a little easier knowing I have some real genuine folks in my life.

Some lyrics have been lining my thoughts today, and of course they're from OtR.

"Courage is a weapon we must use, to find some life we can't refuse... ".

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Love,
kylie

Blah Blah Blah...

So, life can be quite overwhelming.

In the news: I'm digging the new apartment over here on Hazel Avenue.
It's so gloriously vintage! I'll try and get some pictures posted when I get my NEW DIGITAL CAMERA! :) (... kinda excited about that) I haven't been able to unpack everything just yet... Hopefully that will change this weekend.
Finals are this week... tonite's exam wasn't too bad... but the A & P final is a completely different story. Lots o' studying on the way.
My job at the park is ending in less than 2 weeks. So, I have to find something else... soon. I guess I'll start looking next week. I haven't had time to even think about it until, well... until after Thursday. :) So, we'll see. Wish me luck.

Previously, I had something "exciting" to post about, but that's over now. I'd started seeing a young fella about a month ago... but I just didn't feel like it was working out. He's a great guy, just not for me.

OtR's Xmas tour is kicking off... including the Taft show coming up very soon. I'm hoping for a magical nite. I'm excited.

So, there you go.

Life is crazy.

Also, if anyone in the area wants a free massage(tips accepted)... let me know. I'm trying to get the ball rolling. You know you wanna. ;)

I hope you're enjoying the frickin' freezing weather we're having!

I'll talk to you soon.
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It's never quite what it seems.

I recieved a message today that's made me very uneasy. It was a message from a dear friend, and it wasn't the first of its type. I can't even respond b/c I just feel like a huge disappointment, and I don't want to be that to those people. Not them, they've done too much for me. What should I do? How do I go about keeping these friendships that are so important to me? I messed up, and I'm truly sorry for the way I over-reacted. But it's done now. I wear my heart on my sleeve most of the time and it gets me into trouble. When I'm stressed... I believe it's much worse. And when that happens, honestly, I just don't want to be me.
This journal entry isn't for show or even an effort to mend what's happened. I just need to get some of it out into the open. I'm just not sure what to do. Part of me wants to just be done with it all and not subject these fine folks to my erratic behavior any longer. But on the other hand, I can't just leave. It's too much a part of my life, and the relationships are far too important to just let go.

I feel sick over it. I just don't know.

"I wanna do better... I wanna try harder..."

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Just one thing...

Go Colts!

10-0.

Blah Blah Blah

So, I'm gonna update my journal sometime in the near future... I hope.
I really enjoy doing it, I just never have the time to sit around and piece together my thoughts and feelings. Bah. I'm gonna be moving to the "happier" side of Norwood in about 2 weeks(I can't believe how fast the time goes). I'm ready... it's gonna be really hectic with finals/the end of the quarter/work... but I'm ready. Honestly, I just want to get it over with so I can feel settled.

So... I've got a lot of reading to do. I've been trying to read 2 books, plus school stuff. OH my goodness, I just remembered something! ...

Anyhoo, I may or may not update in a few days b/c i may or may not have something exciting going on. :)

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Exactly How I Feel...

"We write these songs[words] because we want to feel things deeply and listen well to our lives. So in times of loss, maybe we feel a bit more than we wish we did, and this makes it exceptionally painful."
-l.d.

More later...