Thursday, April 20, 2006

Disappointment.

Well, a lot of you know I had a big exam today. I didn't pass. Therefore, I do not get to graduate with my fellow classmates. I wanted it so bad. I studied so hard. So hard.
And any of the folks I study with would tell you that I know the information. I just get really nervous. Anxious to the point of no return.
I'm so disappointed with myself.

So, I'll probably be taking the 4th quarter over and taking the State Medical Board in December instead of June.

Everyone believed I could do it. I guess I didn't.

Thanks for the prayers, tho. Everything happens for a reason...

8 comments:

Anonymous said...

Hey Kylie,

I feel for ya. The weekend before Valentine's day I screwed up a road test and lost my job. I felt very disapointed in myself, becuase I could've passed that test if I hadn't been so nervous. And maybe I would still have my job if I had done something differently, though I'm not sure what. Anyways, the second time I took the test I was way less nervous. Maybe it'll be like that for you too! Keep at it, you'll do great. :-)

-Rachel (holeintheface) from the Orchard..

Anonymous said...

K.J.

Sorry to hear that. I'd buy you a drink if I could.

John Natiw said...

Hey KJ. Being upset is ok. It's how we keep that "creative tension" in our lives... moving us forward. Don't know if it helps or not, but Lindsay has a similar problem with her job in the army. She gets super nervous when she has performance tests. If she comes up with any solutions/useful tips, I'll be sure to pass them on. In the meantime, chin up and all that!
J

Di said...

Chin up, Kylie Jo! I know it is very disappointing to work so hard for something and not succeed ... THIS time. But I know you will keep working at it, and you WILL succeed.

: )

Di

taliendo said...

Sucks about the dissapointment, mauler.

I figured a girl like you would go in with a whoop-ass attitude.

next time, chick, next time.

Anonymous said...

Hi, Kylie! Thanks for stopping by and posting a comment! Sorry to hear about your recent bad luck. Perhaps you'll have better luck next go 'round!
~Jenn

Anonymous said...

kylie...i just wanted to say that i am truly sorry that you didn't pass your exam. I have no doubt that you put your heart, soul, and spirit into studying, however don't sell yourself short...all of our steps are ordered of the Lord and obviously He has insight into everything that we desire. Please try not to "over analyze" what went wrong, but focus on how God used you during the whole experience. He knows how much this means to you, so you'll retake the exam and maybe one day you'll be able to look back on this disappointment in life and know that God's divine hand was there all along. Don't be disappointed in yourself...that's just giving Satan what he desires, which is to walk up and down this earth like a roaring lion seeking whom he may desire. So, take a deep breath and get back in the proverbial "ring" and don't let anyone (including yourself) tell you that you can't do it. You are in my prayers.

Anonymous said...

I'm so sorry Kylie. I just stopped by and read this. You are in my thoughts. You are so creative and I know that this opportunity to continue another quarter will be for a reason. Rest and relax and enjoy the process. You do not have to be so hard on yourself because no one is perfect and everyone fails. It is what you do in the midst of that disappointment that matters.