... a broad statement, I realize.
I always find myself thinking, "what was I doing one year ago?"... well, last year at this time I had a boyfriend, and we were seriously talking marriage. I had a horrible job, and I wasn't in school. My church-life was becoming non-existent. My closest non-boyfriend-having-girl-friend was someone I barely speak to now.
Today, I got an email from said girl-friend saying she got engaged last nite. I haven't had a date in over a month. I'm moving to another state in less than a week. School will take up a lot of my time(thankfully). I'm really going to miss working at Beatniks. And I frequently wonder about God. If he's there, why hasn't he reached out?
...
"clear in the middle
where the walls don't bend,
there's a soul on the edge of being born again.
the sky's all blue and the coulds move high
like the smoke above the mirror to my after-life.
i know it's crazy, i don't care...
i'm not wreckless, i'm no good
i know that i'm not doing like i said i would."
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*people with boyfriends often miss being single. *terribly.
*honestly.
*cuz when you're single, you can flirt with boys. :)
*and i know, like, ten people off-hand who think you're damn sexy.
*plus you have a great job.
*people like you there.
*boys flirt with you there.
*you're good at it.
*and next, you're taking the plunge, breaking out, and pursuing your dreams in cincinnati.
*if it doesn't work out, you can go back to beatniks.
*it will work out.
*and you'll have an awesome time.
*and you'll learn to be a kick-ass masseuse.
*and all your friends will bug you for massages.
*cuz i know i would, if i was less than 2000 miles away.
*and you'll be in cincinnati
*there's a thing or two to do, there.
*a band or two to see.
*(not like some little indy towns i know.)
*and you'll have your own place!
*you're being brave.
*even if it doesn't feel like it.
*(your friends are jealous.)
*and you're being adventurous.
*and you will NEVER regret this decision.
*i can speak to that.
*and why would you want a date now?
*right before you move?
*that would be no fun.
*(wait til you live near all the cute boys.)
*and they'll say, "that's so great, she moved here to pursue her dreams."
*"i like that."
*"plus she's damn sexy."
*so take this time to relish the moment.
*maybe God is giving you a break.
*so you can more fully find yourself.
*like you wanted all along.
melanie... you just made my day. thank you, dearie!! (and you're totally right!)
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